From fear to true desire · how I changed my life
Sometimes I can't believe how not so long ago I used to live a very different life to now.
I had a job that was considered the best in the world, aka at Google, I had achieved what I always wanted - the ultimate financial safety and recognition having secured a global role at the most recognisable brand in the world.
I had gotten what I had been craving ALL my life. But what I found was that even though my achievement gave me great relief, I still felt deeply unhappy.
Maybe you wonder what was wrong with me - why wasn’t I happy since that’s all I had ever wanted?
It's because all I ever wanted had been fuelled by beliefs and perspectives I grew up with, which made me seek safety and status above all else - including my soul's purpose, joy, and true desire.
I was more driven by fear rather than passion.
There were great things that came with acquiring this safety and status.
I felt less fear, more ease, and definitely more confidence.
But underneath it all I felt untrue. I had been creating a version of myself which never felt like the real me.
I was also totally exhausted. It takes a lot of energy to constantly try to be something you don't actually care for, to do things that don't lighten up your soul, but rather deplete you.
2.5h years ago I decided
life is too short to be untrue
to be forcing myself to live a life I don't consciously choose
to pursue goals that fulfil other people's expectations of me
to not live my purpose
to not follow my heart
Not because I was romantic - but because I realised that this way of living would eventually destroy me.
There were too many times I judged myself. I told myself it's not possible to do otherwise, this is how life is, I've worked so hard to create what I have, it wouldn't be possible to start over, I don't have what it takes to be anything else, that it was easier to settle and just carry on on this path.
I had NO idea of what to do, who to be, which new career to pursue, but I knew one thing.
I wanted CHANGE and to create the BEST VERSION OF MYSELF.
These days, 2.5 years after I quit my ultimate safety with no plan other than to discover my soul's true desire, I'm grateful to be able to say that I have found it. And that's not a certain career or outcome, it's a deep knowing, a certainty, a groundedness and presence with my own spirit which guides me into doing things that lighten it up!
My own journey of self-discovery has shown me that change is possible for everyone, and at any point, as long as there is WILL to want it
to pursue it
to be open to being inspired by those who have walked the path
to be courageous enough to self-examine
to be fearless enough to have your ego dissolved so that you can build yourself again, from scratch.
In the next coming weeks, I'm very excited to be launching my coaching practice.
It is my deepest desire to transmit the experiences, learnings, and new-found energy I have built up for myself as a service to people who want to make a CHANGE in their lives.
If this resonates with you send me a message to tell me about what is the change you want for yourself or what is blocking you in your life right now.
More to follow soon!
Love,
E x
ABOUT ELENA ZOE
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I am a former Googler reborn as conscious & self-aware living advocate.
I’m a speaker, writer and coach passionate about helping people live their best lives by tapping into the Source of their truth, power and true desire.
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